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OMG SUN!
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Celebration! Parades on every corner!!! There was sunshine and blue sky today!
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I was mapping out the plot line for a project of mine, sort of a Steampunk/neo-industrial queer movement and romance bit, when I came to the heartbreaking realization that one of my two protagonists would have to die.
No seriously, this was heartbreaking. For one thing, he's the sweetest character imaginable. He's firm in his beliefs, is loyal to a fault, and kindhearted. (No, he's not a male Mary Sue. He has his own issues, not to be discussed at this time.) Anyway, he's basically the kind of character you fall in love with.
And he has to die.
Why, you might ask?
Well, because stories don't always have happy endings! Because sometimes bad things happen to good people! And because if I _don't_ kill him off, the story will be converted to instant cheese.
But it is a very sad thing for me to deal with. Which made me realize that I had become very attached to my character. Not so much as one might care for a child, but certainly more than a simple plot device.
To give you an idea of what this character (Cain) is like, here's a fragment of the story:
_The Kitrich's looked up hopefully as he stepped into the room with a weary smile. Their son might have been eleven or twelve, and looked absolutely miserable.
In moments, it was like Turner Street didn't even exist. Cain was back in his office on Porter Lane, and he was Doctor Tadlock, not just a rat in the walls. He slipped his eyeglasses on and knelt down to give the boy a smile. "Hello, I'm Dr. Tadlock. What's your name?"
Liza came quietly to the door, twisting a rag around her hands.
"Cal," the boy answered. He was pale with fever. "Cal Kitrich, sir."
"A good name," Cain murmured, pressing his hand to the boy's forehead. "I bet a boy like you is learning his numbers now, aren't you?"
"I don't go to school, sir."
Cain faltered, but went on as though he had expected this. _
It makes me feel like a terrible monster to kill him off.
I will probably need therapy after this.
No seriously, this was heartbreaking. For one thing, he's the sweetest character imaginable. He's firm in his beliefs, is loyal to a fault, and kindhearted. (No, he's not a male Mary Sue. He has his own issues, not to be discussed at this time.) Anyway, he's basically the kind of character you fall in love with.
And he has to die.
Why, you might ask?
Well, because stories don't always have happy endings! Because sometimes bad things happen to good people! And because if I _don't_ kill him off, the story will be converted to instant cheese.
But it is a very sad thing for me to deal with. Which made me realize that I had become very attached to my character. Not so much as one might care for a child, but certainly more than a simple plot device.
To give you an idea of what this character (Cain) is like, here's a fragment of the story:
_The Kitrich's looked up hopefully as he stepped into the room with a weary smile. Their son might have been eleven or twelve, and looked absolutely miserable.
In moments, it was like Turner Street didn't even exist. Cain was back in his office on Porter Lane, and he was Doctor Tadlock, not just a rat in the walls. He slipped his eyeglasses on and knelt down to give the boy a smile. "Hello, I'm Dr. Tadlock. What's your name?"
Liza came quietly to the door, twisting a rag around her hands.
"Cal," the boy answered. He was pale with fever. "Cal Kitrich, sir."
"A good name," Cain murmured, pressing his hand to the boy's forehead. "I bet a boy like you is learning his numbers now, aren't you?"
"I don't go to school, sir."
Cain faltered, but went on as though he had expected this. _
It makes me feel like a terrible monster to kill him off.
I will probably need therapy after this.
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A Semi-Rant from a Monogamous Bisexual
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So a little while ago one of my friends said to me that I was the only bisexual he knew he could even imagine could actually be monogamous. I already knew about the stereotype of bisexuals being promiscuous, but his comment got me thinking.
One of the huge things that lesbians like to pass around is that a bisexual woman will leave you for a man. Well, last year I dated a lesbian-identified bisexual. I thought things were going great... then I found out that she was "in love" with my best friend since kindergarten and had been practically stalking her on myspace. So, when she came to me and broke up with me literally a few days before Valentine's Day, I was not surprised.
In case you didn't get the point of that story, I- the bisexual- was left- by the "lesbian"- for a female friend (who didn't want anything to do with my now ex-girlfriend but that's not the point.) The point is she left me for someone else, period. It didn't matter that person's gender.
And I didn't blame my best friend for this, or my ex's sexuality. I blamed my ex, not her orientation.
And another thing- were I, a bisexual, to leave a relationship with a woman, it doesn't necessarily have to be for the opposite sex. I might leave her for another woman. I might leave a man for a woman. I might leave a man for a man. More importantly, I might leave for ME. I might leave because I realize the relationship is going nowhere- who I start dating after that is nobody's damned business and has nothing to do with why I ended the previous relationship.
I leave for ME. No one else. So regardless of my views on sexuality and relationships (which, believe me, are still a little unclear) I don't think it's at all fair to say that bisexuals are incapable of monogamy or that they will all leave you for someone who is not your prescribed gender. Making that kind of judgment is pretty much the same as saying "all men/women/blacks/Hispanics are ________." Get my drift?
So there you have it- straight from the monogamous bisexual's mouth.
One of the huge things that lesbians like to pass around is that a bisexual woman will leave you for a man. Well, last year I dated a lesbian-identified bisexual. I thought things were going great... then I found out that she was "in love" with my best friend since kindergarten and had been practically stalking her on myspace. So, when she came to me and broke up with me literally a few days before Valentine's Day, I was not surprised.
In case you didn't get the point of that story, I- the bisexual- was left- by the "lesbian"- for a female friend (who didn't want anything to do with my now ex-girlfriend but that's not the point.) The point is she left me for someone else, period. It didn't matter that person's gender.
And I didn't blame my best friend for this, or my ex's sexuality. I blamed my ex, not her orientation.
And another thing- were I, a bisexual, to leave a relationship with a woman, it doesn't necessarily have to be for the opposite sex. I might leave her for another woman. I might leave a man for a woman. I might leave a man for a man. More importantly, I might leave for ME. I might leave because I realize the relationship is going nowhere- who I start dating after that is nobody's damned business and has nothing to do with why I ended the previous relationship.
I leave for ME. No one else. So regardless of my views on sexuality and relationships (which, believe me, are still a little unclear) I don't think it's at all fair to say that bisexuals are incapable of monogamy or that they will all leave you for someone who is not your prescribed gender. Making that kind of judgment is pretty much the same as saying "all men/women/blacks/Hispanics are ________." Get my drift?
So there you have it- straight from the monogamous bisexual's mouth.
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The Joy of Finals Week
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Got all my final exams done today- the way my school split up the classes I took all of my finals in one day. >.< Way not cool.
But there is a perk- it gave me a lot of time to crochet. I'm working on making yarn representations of all my fave Harry Potter characters! Yayy!!! I'll be uploading pictures as I finish them- I've got most of the parts for Remus Lupin and Nearly Headless Nick, and now that I've got some more black yarn I'll be able to make my most favorite Potions Master. <3
Pics are promised!!!
But there is a perk- it gave me a lot of time to crochet. I'm working on making yarn representations of all my fave Harry Potter characters! Yayy!!! I'll be uploading pictures as I finish them- I've got most of the parts for Remus Lupin and Nearly Headless Nick, and now that I've got some more black yarn I'll be able to make my most favorite Potions Master. <3
Pics are promised!!!
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